God.

so i wrote out a sentence attached to God, describing what i felt at the moment towards God. which was something of utter fail because as i looked closer, i saw there was no need. i deleted some of the sentence, and then some more. as i came to see it, i left it just at who God is.

there was nothing i could exclaim or proclaim that i felt would do any type of justice to God. i left Him as is, because that is exactly who HE is. HE is holy, perfect in everything.

my small brain really fails when it comes to things such as this. i wish that i could understand more, but as i see it, i do less and more is accomplished by God for HIS glory. Praise Him.

i'd love to share a quick snapshot of what my life looks like right now:

1]

i'm 16units deep at the moment...with a desperate need for 4units more to complete my philosophy degree and graduate this spring. this class, phil 122, has 12 senior philosophy majors graduating this spring and we all need it. the problem is that the class is currently full and he is only taking 5 more spots. so that means 41% of us will be admitted. we all wrote half page essays on why we need to take the class. i kind of blanked and simply wrote why i can't do summer school due to ministry. however, as it is now, if i do get in. PRAISE GOD. if i don't and have to take summer school. PRAISE GOD. there is nothing standing in the way of me praising HIM for HE is GOOD.

2]

Last quarter of my collegiate undergraduate career. and i can't say i'm anything but nostalgic. to be honest, i'm actually agonizing leaving school because i won't live with grant as my roomie anymore. this deeply saddens me because he's been one of the best things to happen to me in college. God put the perfect person in my life to be my roommate in a huge transitionary period. i guess all good things have to end. we still haven't had a fight to this day. i mean, how does that not happen?! PRAISE GOD.

3]

My walk with God has been a nice adventure of constantly seeing how God is so faithful. The gospel message never seems to lose anything daily and i've been more and more convicted daily of my sin. it was good friday today, and i was thinking about how amazing God truly is, and how faithful HE is. i hope everyone had an amazing good friday. it truly is good since Christ secured the victory over sin for us with his payment on the cross. grace is just amazing.

4]

i've decided to do mt. hermon. there is no way that i can actually say i chose this without saying that God decided this for me. i was so torn between missions to japan and mt. h that i was stuck for a while. I contemplated both for hours and came to the conclusion that they both were good. i looked at the past two years of mt. hermon and saw how awesome God had been then and how faithful he is and has been with the boys that i've cabin lead. Those weeks of mt. hermon were some of the best weeks i've ever had and i wouldn't trade the experiences ever. i then remembered something craig kaneko helped me to understand. he said that we have free will and to utilize it by looking at both options, weighing in carefully and being practical & realistic in evaluating decisions involving ministry. after weighing the pros and cons of each, i made my decision and after making it official emailing everyone on both sides, i can say that i made the right decision. i felt completely at peace with my decision. it was awesome. i was relieved and there was this heavy burden lifted. it was so serene to be honest, cuz i was kinda tugged on both sides for so long.

5]

The last thing is probably the biggest thing. I am going to be able to intern at Lighthouse Community Church. I think Brian Chang is going to do this as well, and i can't say that i'm anything but honored to be going in with someone who's so amazing. i don't know him too well, but russ is our close friend and well, that pretty much makes us good friends like in-laws or something. but i'm so excited to do this, that i honestly am just in shock from being so happy. ahhhh, it's going to be amazing. and i can't wait to see the amazing fruit and harvest that God will produce. i think this will ultimately tell me a lot of unanswered questions pertaining to my future and where i should go from here. much prayer and thought will be done going into this and i can't wait to start. =D

i love God. so much awesome.

well it's going well now that i have my classes. or the BSE. best schedule ever.

tuesdays 1230-415

wed 330-615

thursday 1230-415

and that's it. =D 4-day weekends. holler.

so that concludes this episode of hunting my classes down. -_-

((still haven't read much, but that's how i always roll.))

i'm starting to figure out everything that i wanted to prior to school starting and so life is about to move onto the next chapter.

the last week or so has been kinda in a standstill as i've been thinking about what i need to do and how i'm going to accomplish those things. as of now, i've actually come pretty close to exactly where i want to be. there's only a couple things left i need to fix which are my cold (screw being sick) and learning "the greatest secret of life"

or that's what Paul coins it, that is to be content.

this is kinda stupid that i have problems being content, but i am always constantly complaining about one thing or another, while finding a reason to justify what i want.

for example. a car.or a newer computer.or a pool. (which will never happen)or etc...

so i'm going to try and stifle the crappy wants of my life and turn my attitude into one that appreciates the moment and lives within that same time.

i also plan on starting p90 again soon, but i think my cold is coming in at an appropriate time as i'm readjusting to life in SB. so after my cold is done. i should expect myself to adjust as well and work out more frequently like i have been before summer ended.

there's been a lot on my mind and if it seems as though i've been out of it, or out of my element, i have been. expected, but i'm going to change quick enough. anyways,

so begins another and my last (hopefully) school year.

:::hiLITEs

NOT dying in a crazy HWYcrash

Philly CHSSsteaks

PollO ASDAfries

PollO QuesOs

ICEEs

Bowling at MIRAmesa

ROYs

SMSHbRoS 64/Melee

Meeting JCs GF

- enjoying the time

-mimi mcgee

Connect THEdragon

Losing ATbarona -_-

Awesome TALKs

and...

Forgetting my CELLphone and having to drive back that night to pick it up because i have to pick up my parents at the airport today.

tbh, i'm getting ancy about my future car, so i think i'm going to look for a temporary replacement. the car that i am currently waiting for is the ft-hs

it's time to think about it now, since no 2010 cars are that awesome, imo.

integra is the less fun, more practical choice

mr2 is the fun, impractical choice

supra is the most fun, out of the question choice

decisions, decisions

i've no doubt had one of the best summers ever. in fact, i might go as far as the best year ever.

this is due to it all being composed of relAxing, enjoying my life, and getting to vacay with some of the closest friends.

i mean...

NY 09'

WA

HAWAII 09'

Mt. Hermon 09'

i dont think i really wanna summarize, but just say that each place i went, i learned something about myself and finally was able to just forget about everything i was worrying about and punt them all in hawaii.

there's something exhilarating and releasing about jumping. kinda like when peter (jason segal) lets go in "forgetting sarah marshall"

i think that a blog has to come from inspiration, and i guess i'm treating it more of a memo rather than an online blog about my life and so that doesn't really equate to much.

my life is and has been sloping downwards over the past half year or so. i have been struggling. and i didn't know that i was struggling. that's not usually a good combination.

i think that after quitting my job, i felt that i was going to be super happy just playing poker and studying for school while taking care of friends, family, and of course my walk (epic as well).

little did i know that my entire life would start to plummet like a rock sinking to the bottom of a lake. i guess i just didn't see it coming, but it was definitely a long time coming. the start of it was the soul crushing ability of my job. and i don't think it was necessarily the idea of work, but what i was doing. i felt that my time could be put to better use other places. i would talk to people who do plenty of different things from engineers, to pastors, to deans, to admissions board members, to maids, to gardeners, etc... and i realized that i didn't want to do what i was doing for much longer.

counting money isn't too hard, although i was off balance a couple times. i did pretty well overall and i managed to sell the most every month. the one thing that i have to say is that it was as good experience and i will never again work in a bank if i don't have to.

i can't believe i'm where i am now. apparently you need a 3.0 to get into talbot. or even be considered. it's 2.5 for master's and that's where i'm at now. so i guess we'll see what happens in the next year and what plans are in store for me.

first thing is that i'm going to play less poker now and focus on God, my weight, and my school work. also i probably need somewhere around 20k for a car. bleh. maybe i should buy stock. -_- riiight.