No Levels by DJ abSRD

been on repeat for the past day.

this is going to be this weekends theme. see y'all when i get back. gg life.

a friend and i were watching a movie who's title is unimportant at the moment. let's just say it may or may not deal with a ship that's sinking while two lovers are fighting to stay alive in the atlantic sea circa 1912. (grant, did i do it right?)

but basically as this possible ship is sinking, the main male protagonist (lets call him jack) is able to think and verbalize about what will happen when the ship goes under, as they are hanging onto the railing for their lives.  he summarizes that they'll need to hold their breath because the boat will take them under, and that they need to swim up immediately...etc.

it is in this scene, where my friend made a comment that will be well remembered by me: "you know what is amazing is jack's clarity in this situation.  he's able to see beyond the frenzy and is able to do what needs to be done"

and although this is just a analogy, it has become something that i've prayed for over the past year or so. i wanted clarity so that i could see beyond whatever was directly in front of me, and be able to see the big picture. and to my surprise, i've been able to see so many things. and not just the ability to see, but to understand as well.

i only mention this because i've realized that ife is so utterly short.

friends, how good it is to live!

&still, how much better is a life with Christ!

it's a weird thought. that in life, when one is doing well, growing in their walk, Christ is shown as great.
yet it is through our weakest, darkest moments, when Christ is shown greatest.

it was in this past year, i've gone through many issues, but the overwhelming endpoint that i've concluded is that God is good. he works all things together for his glory. and life is but a flash, here and then gone.

bitterness has no place in my life.

it's never about falling down.

it's never about striking out.

it's never about losing.

it's about what you do after those things happen.

HIGH

OFF

LIFE

DON'T

NEED

A

PILL

IN

THERE.

("had to" include ray ray and gmiz; miss you guys)

i wish you were here to talk to me. i (nextdayedit: may or may not have) struck out. but at least i swung. and it was for the fences.

i love you man. you were the only thing missing out of this equation.

-jt

i thought about this further, and i decided to take down the story.

and on that note....lets look at my previous years goals set around this time.

{}i'm planning on taking a small break after the funternship and just re evaluating my life for the fall. i'm going to be looking for a job in the mean time so that come fall+, i can start working. i want to finish the bible at least once or twice if possible.

i'm planning on doing 21 chapters a day. i felt very convicted when talking to jesse about this on how to grow and mature more. pray and read. simple, but so easy to be distracted.

i didn't finish the Bible x_X

{}i plan on taking the next year(+) off to work, and then possibly another year as well so that i can grow and mature more before seminary. I feel that there is much to be done in the mean time and that i need to start with the foundation of who i am. I need to read and pray more.

i got a job at Liferay! success~! & i'm definitely growing and maturing.

{}i plan on working out more. i think i've probably said this more than anyone else, but i know i can eventually get to it. i've been so busy with driving to and fro from the south bay to fullerton that i'm pretty exhausted come work out time. but i know that i just need to put my head down and get to it all. there is a heavy burden on my heart to change my life around. it stems from the fact that i need to be in better shape if i am to ever preach the word of God. there is something to be said for having discipline in not just being sanctified by the Word spiritually, but bodily training as well. I was reading a guide/outline on preaching and i agree with the fact that it proposed in that your health is often a reflection of your own self discipline.

i have lost a little weight. i want to lose more.

{}i plan on modding my car a little more. i think there are a few things i want to do, such as an 05'-06' rear conversion. maybe a turbo kit? who knowsss. one thing though, i want to wait for an expensive mod such as that till i have a steady job that i can afford such a pricey upgrade. and at that point, i probably should just save for a different car. or i could turbo my car. lol.

my rsx = broke, i hope to fix & sell it. 

i got an A5 a few days ago. yay!

{}i plan on staying at Lighthouse Community Church for the duration of the foreseeable future. There are so many awesome things going on and things that i've been able to be a part of. I thoroughly enjoy and am challenged by the teaching of the Word. The funternship has definitely helped spur me on towards love and good deeds.

things didn't go as planned. wintersburg, your prodigal son returns.

{}i plan...or actually am being discipled by Eric Lau. This is something that I've been wanting to do since i got back from graduating and i think this is definitely something more than what i was hoping for in terms of mature and qualified. I can't wait to grow and learn more from him. i am thoroughly pleased to be under such an awesome guy. i am very blessed.

Eric Lau is wise. mature. and real.

all in all. it was a step forward this year. and that's exactly what i wanted.

i'm just sayin' you could do better...tell me have you heard that lately?