out there...there's a world outside of yonkers

over the course of last year, one of my best friends was talking to me about life and she was just telling me about her life and how's she's changed, matured, and grown spiritually. i was happy for her, but i didn't really understand what she was talking about. that was until i experienced the process known as maturity [and it's crazy stuff. crazy like a fox.].

tbh, i can't agree with her more. this past year coming out of college, working, etc. i have learned and grown in so many different ways. it's kinda weird, and i'm just grateful that it's finally happening.  maturity, feels so good.

&yeah, i'm feeling on top of the world.

Thus cue God to insta-deconstruct my ego.

i was at disneyland last night and i nearly lost my wallet. it had come out of my back pocket while exiting the train at big thunder. i noticed it was gone while reaching to buy a water at the gate walking out. i couldn't freaking believe it was not there. i was frantic. our group split to check indy and thunder. mike and carrie went back with me, and thankfully, they had it at thunder. OMG. i couldn't believe it. Praise God.

3 things stood out to me during this process:

1) mike saechang pointing me towards the cross - he did this by saying a prayer asking that God would look out for me and that they would have my wallet - then after when it did happen, just saying to me, "see we ask and we'll receive" this whole process made a great impression upon me. not like chiding or scolding me in the situation for my negligence, but encouraging me towards Christ in the moment. awesome. just awesome.

2) time is precious - just the gross feeling of thinking about replacing everything within the wallet. it's not really the money within the wallet that would've hurt the most, but the time that i'd lose because of replacing the items within it. - time is just so precious, i hate losing minutes to things that can be avoided. after working for a little bit now, i've realized that time has to be managed wisely because i have so little after work/sleep; thus having flexibility in any situation is necessary.

3) coming back to the place of humility before God- knowing that at any moment, i'm able to be instantly humbled by the creator / savior of this world. in just so many things, my wallet, my health were two i was thinking about as my elbow was annoying me as well
...and to know that no matter what, we only get this life, and if life isn't stewarded correctly. we'll miss out on a wealth of blessings.

just realizing that no matter what my circumstances, i always need to come back to the cross whenever I think of it, to humble myself and repent and realize that no matter what I've done, it's all by God's grace that i'm living and breathing and changing.