Pulling the Trigger

much like a lazer gun. Pew Pew.

I have been thinking about this post for a while and I decided to finally go about it.
there are so many things that we as humans have to do. But one of those things that are most important are done through a process known as initiation. In other words…we utilize our free will and put our hand to the plow or for a more colloquial term, we pull the trigger. This can be with anything…church, friends, relationships. I wanted to post on all three, but I figured I’d post on the thing that would give the most entertainment value per person (matt sawasaki). Thus we’re going to go into the world of relationships. I’m not intending for this to be a piece of pre-meditated mumbo jumbo, but rather an active ongoing thought that is manifested in a real life experiment. I do not claim to be a reliable source of information. In fact, this is all more just for laughs. I doubt any of what is to follow will make much sense.

I think for me, the hardest thing might be just initiating simple conversation with the opposite sex. I honestly get nervous and I want to just shoot myself because I’m all knotted up inside when I make the first move. I just let all my inhibitions and insecurities take over my thought process. Things that are minor in my confidence list become magnified and make the process ridiculously hard. They instantly become chinks in my armor as I have to put myself out on a limb for a quick second just to make conversation. It makes sense to me that most young, singles go to bars looking to meet their next relationship. They would probably prefer the use of courage juice (alcohol). However, I wanted to post on something that will inevitably be somewhat relevant to readers alike while not utilizing said courage juice.

When I was in Hawaii 09’, we jumped off numerous things into the water below only to possibly injure ourselves or worse, die. It was a testing ground of what we were made of. Thankfully, no one died or was seriously injured. But looking out from on top of those rocks made me think twice. Do I really want to do this? But that’s when I was just like…I gotta just push myself off this rock and go for it. so that’s what I did, and it always ended up going well for me.

This is the problem. There’s a mental block that prohibits us from being who we really are when the time comes. So this is the problem I would say most of us suffer from when it comes to meeting people of the opposite sex. Or maybe its just me.

So how do I overcome this mental hurdle? I’m just going to look at the end result and go for it. This next part is going to sound pretty heeby, and I actually don’t care. Lol. So I’m in my env s 3 class and there’s this asian girl who’s like 3 rows in front of me. This was last Thursday, a week ago. And I’m like. OMG. SHE’S ON ESPN! That’s awesome. Not only that, she’s looking at the NBA playoffs. OMG 100x more awesome. And then she goes to STUMBLE UPON! I’m thinking, wow, that’s so cool. I hope to one day be with a girl like that. I figured, well, that’s another thing to add to the list and I probably won’t talk to her. Then we get up to leave in class, and she’s rocking an ANGELS backpack. What the!? My favorite baseball team since the beginning of time? Where I grew up going to games when we were possibly the worst team (lol California Angels). So this was enough to spark my interest. But then she puts her foot up to tie her shoe, and waittt…what is she rocking? That’s righttt a sick pair of NIKE Blazerrrs. Wow. And to top it all off, she’s pretty good looking. I’m thinking. Wow, this might be the most amazing girl I’ve just seen randomly in class.

So I thought, this is how I’m going to jump this hurdle. I’m a 4th year, I suck at human contact outside of Asian American gatherings and I’m looking to step up my game here.
I’m going to jump my hurdle, meet her & get her number, then ask her out if she’s Christian. Haha. I figure she’s from LA/OC if she’s got an Angels backpack on. The only last problem is if she has a bf. I don’t think so, but i’ll post the results here after class is over. Good luck me.