God.
so i wrote out a sentence attached to God, describing what i felt at the moment towards God. which was something of utter fail because as i looked closer, i saw there was no need. i deleted some of the sentence, and then some more. as i came to see it, i left it just at who God is.
there was nothing i could exclaim or proclaim that i felt would do any type of justice to God. i left Him as is, because that is exactly who HE is. HE is holy, perfect in everything.
my small brain really fails when it comes to things such as this. i wish that i could understand more, but as i see it, i do less and more is accomplished by God for HIS glory. Praise Him.
i'd love to share a quick snapshot of what my life looks like right now:
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i'm 16units deep at the moment...with a desperate need for 4units more to complete my philosophy degree and graduate this spring. this class, phil 122, has 12 senior philosophy majors graduating this spring and we all need it. the problem is that the class is currently full and he is only taking 5 more spots. so that means 41% of us will be admitted. we all wrote half page essays on why we need to take the class. i kind of blanked and simply wrote why i can't do summer school due to ministry. however, as it is now, if i do get in. PRAISE GOD. if i don't and have to take summer school. PRAISE GOD. there is nothing standing in the way of me praising HIM for HE is GOOD.
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Last quarter of my collegiate undergraduate career. and i can't say i'm anything but nostalgic. to be honest, i'm actually agonizing leaving school because i won't live with grant as my roomie anymore. this deeply saddens me because he's been one of the best things to happen to me in college. God put the perfect person in my life to be my roommate in a huge transitionary period. i guess all good things have to end. we still haven't had a fight to this day. i mean, how does that not happen?! PRAISE GOD.
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My walk with God has been a nice adventure of constantly seeing how God is so faithful. The gospel message never seems to lose anything daily and i've been more and more convicted daily of my sin. it was good friday today, and i was thinking about how amazing God truly is, and how faithful HE is. i hope everyone had an amazing good friday. it truly is good since Christ secured the victory over sin for us with his payment on the cross. grace is just amazing.
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i've decided to do mt. hermon. there is no way that i can actually say i chose this without saying that God decided this for me. i was so torn between missions to japan and mt. h that i was stuck for a while. I contemplated both for hours and came to the conclusion that they both were good. i looked at the past two years of mt. hermon and saw how awesome God had been then and how faithful he is and has been with the boys that i've cabin lead. Those weeks of mt. hermon were some of the best weeks i've ever had and i wouldn't trade the experiences ever. i then remembered something craig kaneko helped me to understand. he said that we have free will and to utilize it by looking at both options, weighing in carefully and being practical & realistic in evaluating decisions involving ministry. after weighing the pros and cons of each, i made my decision and after making it official emailing everyone on both sides, i can say that i made the right decision. i felt completely at peace with my decision. it was awesome. i was relieved and there was this heavy burden lifted. it was so serene to be honest, cuz i was kinda tugged on both sides for so long.
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The last thing is probably the biggest thing. I am going to be able to intern at Lighthouse Community Church. I think Brian Chang is going to do this as well, and i can't say that i'm anything but honored to be going in with someone who's so amazing. i don't know him too well, but russ is our close friend and well, that pretty much makes us good friends like in-laws or something. but i'm so excited to do this, that i honestly am just in shock from being so happy. ahhhh, it's going to be amazing. and i can't wait to see the amazing fruit and harvest that God will produce. i think this will ultimately tell me a lot of unanswered questions pertaining to my future and where i should go from here. much prayer and thought will be done going into this and i can't wait to start. =D
i love God. so much awesome.
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