i've been super busy as of late. i had a midterm and 5 page paper due yesterday. i have a closed reading, practice midterm essay, and about 2 books to read in order to catch up to where i'm supposed to be, both assignments are due tomorrow. i have 2 midterms next week. it's been pretty racking on my ability to multitask, focus, and be a good steward of my time.
This morning, amidst the steady rain that poured on me to give me nice soaked jeans, i gave a presentation in my RG ST class about the meaning of life pertaining to a book we're in. As i was thinking about my response question, i wished i could've just talked about how i'm a Christian who draws everything from a holy, perfect God, who gives me my purpose.
although, i only had 10 minutes to split with 3 other guys to talk about our weekly reading, something clicked inside my head as i talked with my classmates. so many people...who i just assume have heard the gospel...(actually, i just don't even think about them at all [i'm a terrible person] ) have not heard about and don't even know who God is. i think if i had a guess before i would've said at least 30% of the people in my class have probably heard of Christianity and probably have a vague idea of what it is. i actually think that my percentage is wayyy off. and it's like 15% maybe 10%.
i quoted from the book we're in (Psychological theories of Relgion):
"If the most basic motivating force in human existence is the pursuit of meaning, then the distinguishing characteristic of religion is the pursuit of ultimate meaning usually through a relationship to a transcendent God."
i asked them what they felt their meaning was. who they felt they were accountable to- themselves, or to God? or a relationship with Him? Do you draw your idea of who you are from yourself, or is it something predisposed to you by your parents/people you live with? from God?
they responded with answers that all rely upon themselves. i look to me for my meaning. i am my own definition. i am accountable to myself. i don't believe in God. i, i, i...
it was sad, but honest. The closest thing about God was when a girl said was that she went to church on easter and christmas. i might actually talk to that girl later. actually, i'm going to talk to her. no more crappy "i might" thoughts.
I think i just have been assuming my entire life that since America is a predominantly Christian based nation (and i grew up around Christians), i assume people have a basic religious affiliation to Christianity because i've always been around them. how foolish of me. (as i write in my blog, i realize how much more foolish i am, than i actually perceive myself to be. i am so weaakk sauce) =| this is exactly why i need to be more active in my faith in talking/living it out to people who don't know, who haven't heard.
The thing i am missing the most is more of the Word of God in my life. i look at my bible and wish i could read more all the time, as i have been trying to read 15 chapters a day, but i've been lagging because of the massive overload of school work. i was thinking about it, and i wish i had more time in the day so i can accomplish more. not possible... =\ o wells.
i need to talk to my roommate more too. :sigh: please pray for his salvation. lots of things to do, and not so much time to do it in.
since, we're in the season of NBA playoffs...this made me laugh and i hope it makes you laugh too... i'm going to buy his jersey if they knock off the cavs. or i might just get it anyways. HIGH LARIOUS.
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